oh fuck, i guess i should to talk a little about myself? ok, uh... where do i start...?

well for one i'm very scared of most bugs. it's a longtime trigger for my OCD, and i can't handle even looking at pictures of them. oh, that's probably not very good to begin with, is it? umm... i really like cute things, in case you couldn't tell. i hoard clothes and accessories i like and i tend to stockpile recipes i also like and it seems i have an issue with simply letting things go. in particular i really like baroque era dresses, teddy bears, pastries, pasta, and video game stuff. i'm not very good at showing every facet of my identity, so when my friends witness me being exceedingly cutesy or intense and brooding, they freak out a little. good.

i'm also an artist and i've been drawing since i was very very little, but started drawing seriously when i saw fanart of an anime i didn't watch and realized "wait! i can do that too...!?" and now here i am, a "serious" artist for 4+ years. character design in particular is what i like the most, some of my biggest inspirations are sanrio, san-x, and gloomy bear. the biggest thing i've done is that i made this fucking hellsite. i make a lot of characters, from fancharacters to completely original characters to avatar/sona/self-insert characters. why? like... for funsies, idk. i've also been a yumejoshi/self-inserter since i was a child, but i don't really talk about it much i guess.

i like to dabble in other arts and crafts and one day i'll figure out how to make an art page but if you're curious as to what my style looks like... well, the whole website is almost entirely original assets save for stuff that's clearly from really old websites. y'know, for the ~aesthetic~. it's a neocities website after all, y'know? yeah. i also have a few sites where i post my art on my links page so if you'd like to see other stuff that's cool. one day i'll set up an art page here but coding that would be difficult, i think... maybe one day...

i think the only other thing i want to mention is that i'm mentally ill-- like, 17 years of therapy and court ordered therapy ill. i'm professionally diagnosed w ASPD, schizophrenia, PTSD, amongst other issues, but those are the main trio that i speak of the most in my little diary page. it also shows in my basic personality, how i view others, and how i cope with upsetting issues. don't speak to me about my illnesses if you're trying to figure out if my symptoms "match" yours for a self dx, i literally hate self dxers.

other than that i can't think of much else to say. maybe when i do i'll edit this later!

favorites!

in no particular order

colors: pale lavender, peach pink, pale yellow, and powder blue
foods: grilled salmon w lemon, mashed potatoes, kamuy ohaw, mangoes, bananas, pastries, chicken breast, steak, junk food, MOSTACCIOLI
drinks: mcdonalds sprite, orange gatorade, hot chocolate, EXTREMELY sweet sweet tea, room temp water
desserts: cinnamon rolls, red velvet cake, tiramisu, this one chocolate mcdonalds bday cake i had in the 7th grade, croissants, apple pie, key lime pie, peanut butter pie
aesthetics: whatever tf yeat got going on, aicore.
video games: animal crossing, the sims 4, far cry 4-6 (far cry primal is the best one argue w ur insecurities), mortal kombat, hello kitty big city dreams, injustice 2, tekken, mario kart, corpse party, cyberpunk 2077, stray, gta 5, rdr2, fran bow, little misfortune, tomodachi life, nintendogs, roblox, scribblenauts
characters: joe goldberg (you), penguin? (sumikko gurashi), cinnamoroll/pompompurin/pochacco/chococat (sanrio), ada (lamb), dexter morgan (dexter), hannibal lecter (hannibal), MOTHRA (godzilla), elizabeth harmon (queen's gambit), sakamaki laito (diabolik lovers), mukami yuma + azusa (diabolik lovers 2), dave lizewski (kick ass), mongo (shrek), melman (madagascar), kim ki-jung (parasite), dandy mott (ahs freak show)
places: my bedroom, the mall, airports, train stations, anywhere when it starts to snow, sacramento california, the delaware water gap, my childhood home, my grandmother's arms, caves, clifftops, mountains